Well. I wouldn't say that's all you're made for. You sure seem to enjoy your time with Cain. And don't think I didn't see everyone who jumped to your defense either.
'sides, there's nothing wrong with killing, so long as it's for a good reason.
[He actually has to think on that for a moment. DOES Cain have someone back home?]
I don't think so...I know he's devoted to Central's Prince, but that's knight-duty stuff. Not romantic. Being a Sage's Wizard doesn't give either of us much time to look for love anyway.
What's more, if he did have someone, he wouldn't be gettin' involved with you here. That's not how he is.
[The blue-haired boy...Brad glances down, trying to hide how much the reminder hurts him.]
I wanna be a dad. I could do it, I came from a big family and helped take care of countless nieces 'n nephews. But having kids comes with all new fears, like not bein' able to protect them. Wizards aren't exactly seen as good guys in my world, and that danger would be passed on to my kids.
[This doesn't not explain why the kid had blue hair though.]
… Will you be a good one? I hope you can. Promise you won’t drink in front of them? Promise you won’t let it turn you into a monster? Promise you won’t use them when you need something to hurt? Promise you won’t sell them off for pieces of paper that mean nothing?
[ money or paper, it all burns the same in the end. ]
...you know Cain, so you gotta know I can't make promises at all. But I'm not gonna half-ass bein' a dad. My mom was a great mom, and I helped take care of all of my nieces 'n nephews, so I know what a good parent takes. No drinking in front of 'em, no being an asshole to 'em, no using 'em for hurting nor selling.
[Basically, restating Yoru's worries without making promises.
He pauses, considering something.]
...might not have a dozen kids in 15 years like Mom did. That was a lot for her.
Yeah, two or three is a good number. My dad had so many because he wanted a wizard kid to live out the centuries with him, but then he went and died before I was even an adult. I don't care if my kids are human or wizard, I'll love 'em regardless.
Well...he was good to me, but ignored my human siblings. If I had grown up around him, I might've turned out the same way. Then I wouldn't have met Nero or anyone else.
So...I dunno. I do miss him, but I like the life I have now.
It depends. If both parents are wizards, then the kid'll be a wizard too. But my mom was a human, and most of the time a wizard and a human will have a human kid.
[As for the rest...Brad just rubs at the back of his neck.]
Mom 'n my brothers 'n sisters were all human, and they lived normal human lives. They all passed away before I was 100.
...I lived through burying my mom and my siblings. And their kids, and their grandkids, and great-grandkids. I know it's not the same as losing your own kid, but I think I'm better prepared than most are.
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Date: 2025-03-30 03:48 am (UTC)spins wheel!
bradley can find yoru at the pagoda in the garden, gazing contemplatively at the pond. when yoru sees him, he just smiles faintly and says: ]
You found me.
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:13 am (UTC)[He is careful to avoid the word 'promise' there though.
Brad goes up to the pagoda to sit down by Yoru.]
Are you the same one from earlier today?
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:18 am (UTC)[ jin doesn’t know anything after all. ]
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:23 am (UTC)[He frowns. While he's older and more able to survive the horrors of this place, it's still not easy.]
So...if, hypothetically speaking, "Yoru" was to do a murder, that would be you and not him, right? Since he wouldn't be able to handle it at all.
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:26 am (UTC)You don’t have to be hypothetical. I do kill for us. I’ve always. I was born from him to do just that because he can’t.
[ … ]
You could say that’s all I’m made for.
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:35 am (UTC)'sides, there's nothing wrong with killing, so long as it's for a good reason.
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:53 am (UTC)That’s just it. I only have selfish reasons for what I do.
[ but cain’s name brings that tight, conflicting feeling in his chest. it’s a helpless thing. what can he do about cain? ]
Cain… he has someone, doesn’t he? Back where you’re from.
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Date: 2025-03-30 04:56 am (UTC)I don't think so...I know he's devoted to Central's Prince, but that's knight-duty stuff. Not romantic. Being a Sage's Wizard doesn't give either of us much time to look for love anyway.
What's more, if he did have someone, he wouldn't be gettin' involved with you here. That's not how he is.
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:12 am (UTC)[ but he thinks about cain’s fears this week and he thinks about that stranger’s face wearing cain’s eyes. ]
He’s not - [ he picks at his nails. ugh, a bad habit from jin. he makes himself stop. ] He’s not in love with me or anything.
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:21 am (UTC)Wait, is it just a sex thing then?!
[He sounds surprised. He didn't think Cain could do that.]
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:29 am (UTC)yoru opens his mouth. snaps it shut. then tilts his head. ]
It was just a sex thing.
[ a game. a really fun game. ]
He does care, but that’s different from having feelings. Isn’t it?
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:32 am (UTC)[He pauses, considering.]
I think he just always cares regardless. I've never seen him half-ass anything, that's just how he is. You might wanna ask him to clarify it.
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:37 am (UTC)[ but he shakes his head about cain. ]
No. No, I don’t think I will.
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:47 am (UTC)I wanna be a dad. I could do it, I came from a big family and helped take care of countless nieces 'n nephews. But having kids comes with all new fears, like not bein' able to protect them. Wizards aren't exactly seen as good guys in my world, and that danger would be passed on to my kids.
[This doesn't not explain why the kid had blue hair though.]
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Date: 2025-03-30 05:54 am (UTC)… Will you be a good one? I hope you can. Promise you won’t drink in front of them? Promise you won’t let it turn you into a monster? Promise you won’t use them when you need something to hurt? Promise you won’t sell them off for pieces of paper that mean nothing?
[ money or paper, it all burns the same in the end. ]
You don’t want them to end up like me.
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Date: 2025-03-30 03:06 pm (UTC)[Basically, restating Yoru's worries without making promises.
He pauses, considering something.]
...might not have a dozen kids in 15 years like Mom did. That was a lot for her.
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Date: 2025-03-30 08:16 pm (UTC)[ some things are worth the risks. ]
… Two seems like a good number.
[ fifteen is… a lot. ]
A big one and a little one. They’ll never be lonely that way.
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Date: 2025-03-31 12:20 am (UTC)Yeah, two or three is a good number. My dad had so many because he wanted a wizard kid to live out the centuries with him, but then he went and died before I was even an adult. I don't care if my kids are human or wizard, I'll love 'em regardless.
[He won't be like his shitty dad.]
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Date: 2025-03-31 12:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-31 01:39 am (UTC)So...I dunno. I do miss him, but I like the life I have now.
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Date: 2025-03-31 01:46 am (UTC)You say… human… so wizardry is by chance? Wait, do your human siblings live as long?
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Date: 2025-03-31 02:09 am (UTC)[As for the rest...Brad just rubs at the back of his neck.]
Mom 'n my brothers 'n sisters were all human, and they lived normal human lives. They all passed away before I was 100.
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Date: 2025-03-31 03:08 am (UTC)[ he’s lost his entire family. ]
But it sounds like they’re still in your heart. Even when you’re in your thousands, I hope you don’t forget.
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Date: 2025-03-31 03:29 am (UTC)[Even hundreds of years after they passed, he still loves them dearly.]
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Date: 2025-03-31 03:55 am (UTC)Bradley, will you… be able to live through the heartbreak of losing a human child?
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Date: 2025-03-31 04:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-31 04:26 am (UTC)Mm… I think I underestimated you. Should I apologize?
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Date: 2025-04-03 01:44 am (UTC)