I don't remember everything about my 600 plus years of life, just like you probably don't remember every waking moment of your 18 years. But I remember the important stuff. I remember the things that made me feel happy.
I remember each of my brothers and sister's names and what their voices sound like, even though they've been dead for over 500 years. I remember what my mother looked like, even though she's been dead longer. When you live to be as old as a wizard gets, that's what you end up being: the keeper of the memories of the dead. Who knows how many memories I'll be keeping when I reach a thousand, or even more.
It's just...he's gone now, and I don't think it'll matter for the case. Even if he was strugglin' with his own battles, Nero wouldn't just give up and let someone kill him like that.
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Is there anything I can do to help? I know I'm not... Nero-san, but still.
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Right, gotcha. And you don't gotta be Nero, you just gotta be yourself.
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You didn't answer.
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[...]
He was the last one. The last of the people who knew me as a kid. The last of my 'family'. I know I ain't fully alone, but...it's hard.
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...I'm sorry.
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[He sighs, and shakes his head.]
I'll be better after this weekend. Once we know what happened. But I got a hell of a temper, and if anyone badmouths Nero I won't be able to take it.
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I remember each of my brothers and sister's names and what their voices sound like, even though they've been dead for over 500 years. I remember what my mother looked like, even though she's been dead longer. When you live to be as old as a wizard gets, that's what you end up being: the keeper of the memories of the dead. Who knows how many memories I'll be keeping when I reach a thousand, or even more.
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[ the idea of outliving your family and friends is a little terrifying, kazuki thinks. and now he's lost nero, too? ]
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[His gaze is a bit sad as he says that. He's definitely thinking of someone specific when he says that.]
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Like...?
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It's nothing important. Just observations from long ago.
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If you say so.
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It's just...he's gone now, and I don't think it'll matter for the case. Even if he was strugglin' with his own battles, Nero wouldn't just give up and let someone kill him like that.
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...All we can do is just try to figure it out tomorrow. For him and Ragnvindr-san.